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Waiting is the most stressful part. You think ‘What if they don’t want me? Why haven’t they contacted me?’ and you start to freak out. Your heart starts to pound, your head hurts and your throat constricts as you think of all the things you have to pay for, all the things you had wanted to do, all the plans you had. And it doesn’t help when those closest to you keep reminding you about it, at that exact moment when you had finally calmed down again. 

You think, ‘It’s only been a few days. They need more time for a decision.’ What is only a few days seems like a month and a week feels like a lifetime. Then time starts running out. Whatever deadline you have in your mind to find out if you are employed is coming up fast and those closest to you wont let you forget it. They keep asking you and asking you, ‘Heard anything about the job? Have you emailed this person? Talked to that person? We need to talk. We need to make plans. Any news on the job?’ As if you are the one who doesn’t want to work, which couldn’t be any farther from the truth. And no matter what you have done, what you have aid, how much you have tried to be logical about it, they keep asking and you keep stressing until you are ready to scream or cry.

The hardest part is the waiting, because, when the protocol has been fulfilled and your strategies exhausted, there is nothing you can do about it but wait.

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